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Thank you for taking the time to read this, it means the world to me and I am very grateful.

                                         Be Amazing! Be Strong! Be YOU!

I am not a doctor or a therapist. I do not have any degrees or anything. I am just an average woman with a lot of life experience hoping to lift someone up that might feel a little gloomy. Of course, this is a new blog so it may take a while for me to blog about all the things I have been through that have changed my life. If you are here hoping to read something about a certain topic that I have not wrote about yet, please send me an e-mail and I will write it as soon as I can.

The main focus of my blogs will be too help someone overcome a hurdle in their life. Maybe you don’t know how to cope with the loss of a loved one, you’re getting bullied in school, or you are just feeling a little depressed and need some motivation, that’s what i’m here for. I will be sharing the hurdles I have faced and how I overcame them. I know that everyone is different and what worked for me may not work for you, and that’s okay. Just know that if you are struggling with something You Are Not Alone.

Please note, I am not a professional, if you are in a crisis situation please contact a doctor or therapist that has the ability to help you better than I can. This blog is for inspiration or motivation and is not meant to be used as treatment.

 

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God’s Blessing

He brought me out of darkness,

And took the pain away.

He showed me eternal love,

And in my heart He will stay.

 

He never gave up on me,

And He never let go.

He stayed by my side,

He knew I would grow.

 

My faith in Him blossomed,

And grew more each day.

Now I know without Him,

There is no other way.

 

He taught me to be strong,

And He taught me to listen.

He taught me that believing,

Should be my new mission.

 

He told me to trust Him,

And to believe in His plan.

With Him in my heart,

I know that I can.

 

I can rise up from the darkness,

And let him light my path.

I will never need to worry,

Of the devil’s evil wrath.

 

I know I am blessed,

And I know you are too.

No matter how confusing,

Know that His love is true.

 

When things look dim,

And you feel all alone.

Close your eyes to pray,

And let your sadness be known.

 

He is there to heal us,

And to take away the doubt.

He is there to guide us,

And to show what He is about.

 

Just call out to Him,

And let your love for Him be known.

And please always remember,

You Are Not Alone.

A Small Life Story

I want to start todays blog by thanking everyone that has read, liked, or followed my blog. It really does mean the world to me. It makes me very happy that someone would take the time to read what I have to say, and for that I am thankful. So, if you are reading this now, thank you! Now, on with today’s blog. I wanted to talk a little bit more about me. I just wanted to give you all a bit of a backstory. I’m not going to go in depth, but I am going to talk about some of the things I have experienced that made me want to try and help other people.

To start with, yes, I’m young. I’m only 27. Unfortunately, I have had to go through a lot before I could get to where I am now. I have questioned myself about posting this, but I decided to follow my heart and put it out there for everyone to read. I honestly don’t think my past was terrible but other people that know me don’t understand how I went through so much. I believe that I went through what I did so I could help other people that might be struggling with something.

I lost my parents at a young age. I was 8 when my mother passed and 16 when my father passed. I love my parents more than anything and I wish everyday they were here with me. I lost my grandmother when I was 7 and my grandfather when I was 10. I have lost multiple aunts, uncles and cousins that it would take way too long to list them all. 6 years ago, I lost one of my best friends in a car wreck. So, I have been coping with loss for a long time and I have learned a lot from that.

I was bullied a lot in school, and I got into a lot of fights because of it. Bullying is very tricky to deal with, sometimes it helps to tell someone but sometimes it makes it worse. I am going to make a blog about bullying soon because I want to go more in depth about that. From the age of 15-18 I was sexually and mentally abused, and that’s a whole other story I will only go in depth about if requested. I don’t really know how to talk about that subject but if you are going through that and need to talk send me an e-mail and I will go in depth about how I dealt with it. Around the age of 20, I was physically abused by a boyfriend. I loved him and thought I could change him. That’s a blog for another day.

I have tried to commit suicide a few times when I was younger. I used to cut myself almost every day and nothing worked. No matter how much I cut or did other things, it didn’t solve anything. Now, I know that suicide is a very hard subject to talk about, and so is cutting. I actually didn’t start talking about it until a couple of years ago, and I was in my teens and younger when I went through it. I know that life gets hard and depressing but if you are reading this and dealing with anything I have talked about please believe your life will get better. Talk to someone, there is someone out there that will listen and try to help. Trust me when I say someone cares. If you feel like you have nobody to talk to send me an e-mail. I will be more than happy to help in any way I can.

Please remember, You Are Not Alone.

He is on my side

I wanted to take a minute to talk about someone who has always been there for me no matter what. God. He has never gave up on me. Even when I gave up on him. After my dad passed away I went through a period where I was mad at God. I didn’t understand why He had to take my dad away from me. I had a lot of questions that nobody could answer, they just told me to pray.

After about a year, I finally decided to pray. Every single day, I prayed. I just wanted to know why God couldn’t heal my dad. At first, I though i was wasting my time. Then, thoughts started popping in my head. Good thoughts. Such as, “He’s not hurting anymore.” and “Everything will be okay.” I also started having dreams. Good dreams like spending time with my dad and him being healthy and happy. My dad was in a lot of pain, mentally and physically. He missed his wife, who had passed away 8 years prior to him. He had congestive heart failure and always had trouble breathing. Even though it hurt to lose him and I missed him more than anything he wasn’t in pain anymore.

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I now know that with God on my side anything is possible. I thought my prayers and questions were being ignored. No, he was answering me in a different way, through thoughts and dreams. He showed me in my dream that my dad was happy and that I should be happy for him. My dad wasn’t in pain anymore and really, that’s all I ever wanted. I know now that my prayers will be answered. It may not be immediately and it may not be the way I think it should be, but He will answer. He will not lead me in the wrong direction. He will never leave my side. He is always there to listen whenever i need Him. It doesn’t matter what time of day it is, He’s there.

So, talk to God. He is there for you too. He will never leave you and he will protect you. He knows your struggle and He knows your pain, I believe He is just waiting for you to ask for His help. And if you have already, He will help you. Be patient. He will answer your prayer when the time is right. Whatever you are going through may not make sense right now, but it will. Go somewhere quiet, clear your mind, pray and try to listen. He may answer you through your thoughts or dreams, I don’t know. I do know that He is there for you, just open up your heart and let Him in.

And please always remember, You Are Not Alone.

Coping With Loss

Coping with the loss of a loved one is the hardest thing I have ever done. It hurts a lot, and makes you wonder if there was anything you could have done. You look back at all the fun times you had, but you also look back at every argument with regret. Maybe you wish you would have spent more time with them or had called them more often. The first thing you can do for yourself is to accept that your loved one is happy, and if they were sick, know they are not sick anymore. Don’t ever regret anything, know that they loved you and they don’t want you beating yourself up over something you said. Understand that everyone’s time is limited and there’s nothing you can do to change that. Know that everything happens for a reason.

I am speaking from experience, I grew up losing loved ones and I know how hard it is. I lost my grandmother when I was 7, lost my mother when I was 8, my grandfather when I was 10 and my father when I was 16. I lost too many aunts and uncles in between those times but I don’t remember my exact age. Losing my parents was the worst thing that had ever happened. It was very hard for me to understand and accept. I know the feeling of having your world crash down in a matter of seconds. I’ve been through the depression and trying to figure out why. If you are reading this because you have lost someone and you’re trying to learn how to deal with it, I know how you feel. I am not a therapist, doctor, or anything like that. I’m just an average woman who has a lot of life experience.

Don’t get mad. I know this is hard to do. When I lost my dad, I was mad at everyone, especially God. I didn’t understand why he would take everyone away from me. I didn’t understand why I had to grow up without either one of my parents. I got very depressed at this time and took my anger out on everyone around me. Whenever my brother tried to comfort me I would scream at him. I didn’t want anyone around me and that’s the worst thing you can do. So, don’t get mad. Let your emotions out. Sometimes the best thing you can do is cry. You do not need to “man up”. Just cry, let it all out. If someone is trying to comfort you, let them. They love you and they probably understand what you’re going through.

Take time to understand that God will help you. Reach out to Him and pray. This took me a long time to understand. I was mad at God to begin with, but then i accepted that He knew what He was doing. My family members that i lost were very sick and in a lot of pain. Now they are not suffering anymore, they are happy and they are still with me in my heart and dreams. They will always be with me and I know that they love me. I remember all the happy times we shared together and it makes me smile.

Remember to talk. Talk to your friends, your family, even your counselor if you are in school. Don’t bury your feelings, that’s not healthy. It may not seem like it at first but talking about your feelings will help. I buried my feelings for years and it made me very depressed. When i started talking and letting everything out it got better. Day by day, I was getting happier and it didn’t feel like i had an elephant on my chest anymore. Take everything one step at a time, each day is a new day and a new opportunity to find happiness within yourself. Nobody can be happy for you, that has to come from within.

It took me a while to cope with losing the people who I loved, but after a while I had it under control. I cried, prayed and talked to everyone. I even started a journal. I wrote everyday, I wrote down memories, dreams, goals, whatever was on my mind. I noticed that helped also. My main goal was just to get my feelings out, and when I did I felt better. Just remember, its okay to cry. It’s okay to be upset. There is nothing wrong with grieving. Also remember, you are not alone. There are people out there who will help you, there are people who understand what you’re going through. Don’t feel like you have to overcome this obstacle by yourself. There is someone out there who cares. I care, I don’t want anyone feeling alone like I did. That’s the whole point of me starting this blog, my focus is for you to know that You Are Not Alone.